my last goodbye

i've been a fool for you for years now.

still holding on to the lie that you'll be back.

why are you doing this.

why are you still giving me the hope.

i have been broken for years now,

i sacrificed the chances of finding the one who can fill my emptiness.

i refused to trust my heart to others.

i have learned to fake a smile for others to see me happy.

i have learned to be numb.

i have learned to hurt others because i refused to respond to their love...

don't you think you have done enough?.

you've broken me into tiny pieces, and now, I can't reassemble myself.

Until now, I find it hard to trust myself to somebody.

I'm scared. I wanted to try but everytime I do, I fail.

Perhaps it's because I'm still hoping that one day you'll walk back in and say you love me.

It's pathetic. Stupid. Non-sense.

I'm really tired with these damn emotions.

All I wanted is for you to say you damn hate me.

And I'll stop with this stupidity.

Please don't give me anymore damn signs.

Coz no matter how hard I fight it, I lose.

Now, I wanted a new life.

I'll forget about you for the last time now.

I'll give myself a chance to try.

I'll try to learned to go with those stupid games.

So that next time, you'll see me standing with heads up.

I'll be very happy when I'll reach the point that you regreted hurting me.

Stupid you! I wanted revenge.

But I've come to realize that it would be very impossible.

So, I'll just stick to the fact that I can never be happy if I'll stick my thoughts on you.

But dont be rest assured.

Someday I'll be back with even new surprises.
I'll let go of you now.

It's more than enough.

This should be the last, my last goodbye.