What my birthdate says about me

> Loves to joke.
> Attractive.
> Suave and caring.
> Brave and fearless.
> Firm and has leadership qualities.
> Knows how to console others.
> Too generous and egoistic.
> Takes high pride of oneself.
> Thirsty for praises.
> Extraordinary spirit.
> Easily angered.
> Angry when provoked.
>Easily... jealous.
> Observant.
> Careful and cautious.
> Thinks quickly.
> Independent thoughts.
> Loves to lead and to be led.
> Loves to dream.
> Talented in the arts, music and defense.
> Sensitive but not petty.
> Poor resistance against illnesses.
> Learns to relax.
> Hasty and trusty.
> Romantic.
> Loving and caring.
> Loves to make friends .


Based from facts about myself, i guess, it was all true. Does it mean that all people born on the day I was born have all these characteristics too? tsk tsk. I doubt.

He's doin great. Should I be happy?

Staring at the sky watching the stars. I don't understand myself again. Wondering how my heart have been. It's been years now but why do I still get the same feeling whenever I see him. I'm crazy. I'm sure I am. I get emotional again. I dont know what to do. I don't know what am I supposed to feel. The stars are shining brightly like it always does. It decorates the sky and scare the rain clouds away. How I wish they can also scare away the feelings that I am not supposed to feel. I'm alone in this battle. How I wish I can share this to anybody so as to lighten my burden somehow and shed this stupid feeling.

Like the stars, all I can do is watch him from a distance and wish for it to fall. But how many years do I have to wait to pluck the star and let it fall? I'm pathetic. I'm hopeless. I remember countless promises to forget anything about this stupid feeling but I always end up feeling like this. Sitting in the balcony, staring at the stars-filled sky. The stars have always been my audience in the pathetic drama held in my balcony. I'm hopeless. Pathetic. Stupid. Broken (again). He still have my heart. I still can't find it. How I wish he just returned it back to me even if its broken so that I can move on and start again with those tiny pieces.

Many years have passed, countless attempts of finding my weary little heart have been made, but its totally useless coz I can't find it anywhere. Did you bury it somewhere? Please tell me where. I'm hopeless in finding it.

I know I'm strong, I'm in control. A woman with a plan. But why do I forget what I'm supposed to do when I'm looking at you. I'm an idiot. You're indeed my sweetest downfall. And I was never proud of it. I'm sad. Coz I know no matter how many times I wish, It will not come true. I'd rather fall and be inlove with a virtual person coz I'm sure it will not hurt that bad. It's easier to believe that I cannot own a virtual lover rather than to accept the fact that you can't be mine.

My star, I want to reach for you, but here I am, stuck in the ground. You're so high. So, why should I try, I know I'm gonna fall down. I don't wanna hear the sound of losing what I never found. I'm missing you way too much. Wondering when do I give up what I've been wishing for.

Every instance that I see you, I always play this sad song, sitting in the corner of the balcony, staring at the starry sky, and tears just keep falling.

I don't know where I'm at
I'm standing at the back
And I'm tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I'll find what I've been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I'm going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it's coming down
Can't find another way around
And I don't want to hear the sound of losing what I never found.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
That I could be missing
I'm missing way too much
So when do I give up what I've been wishing for

**Down - Jason Walker**

My Maya Aztec Reading

Ive tried the free Maya aztec sample reading and it seems that most things written there are true. :)

Here are your strongest and most obvious personality traits. The delineation below describes who you are and how you appear to others, at least on the surface. In Aztec astrology this part of is your horoscope is your Tonalli, or Day-Sign, the form bestowed upon you by the Sun.

Monkey: You are a person who needs attention from others. It is possible that you are an actor, artist, musician, designer or writer. You may also be multi-talented, able to switch from one art form to another with little effort. If you don't practice an art form you probably seek other ways to get attention, and in some cases, less socially acceptable ways.

Perhaps it is the cultivation and development of personality that is the core issue for Monkey types. The mask of the self, the social personality, appears to be the strong point, or the object of obsession, for those of you born on this day. You experience life as theater and the mask becomes all important. In careers where personal presentation is crucial to success, as in performing or sales, a developed personality is a real asset.

You are the type of person who assumes positions of leadership. By nature you are not a follower and therefore your choice is either independence or leadership -- but leaders get attention. You have a tendency to constantly promote yourself which is often perceived by others as attractiveness or even charisma. Much of this is done unconsciously. It may be the case that you are really very insecure and need to compensate for this by getting the world to acknowledge your worth. However, sometimes you compensate a little too much and can be overbearing and dominating.

Emotionally, you may be a little distant and aloof in close relationships. Your emotional distancing may attractive to others as it lends an air of mystery to your already dramatic character. But this could also create problems in relationships. On the other hand, you also have powerful drives and a strong desire nature. Your desire for leadership and attention is also behind your many accomplishments. Perhaps these drives are one and the same.

You are also a very communicative and curious person. You are interested in everything that passes in front of you and will go out of your way to learn how something works. You make an excellent teacher and are an equally good student. Mentally, you are capable of working with details, but you excel at generalities, and this is often what leadership requires.

The mission will soon be over

It's been quite a long time since i last posted a blog here. Well, i have to admit, i was really really busy these past few months.
Watching the nights turn into days, I didn't notice that I was almost on my last part as a college student. All hard working days and sleepless nights will soon be over. Finally, I'm almost there. I've been wishing for this thing for a long time and its surely reachable now. Part of me is, of course, extremely happy for I will be finally leaving the student life and face another mission of the game and part of me, is quite sad. I know leaving my student life also means leaving everything that I used to have and do for more than 4 long years. And that would surely include my friends, the gimmicks, the bonding moments we use to have, the psychotic stuffs, the foods, and loling around. Yes, graduating will surely be fun and excitement is on my nerves. But I'm surely sad about how we're going to miss each other. Im sure that if we have works already and even have our own families, Im pretty sure we won't have time for each other.
Well, I guess, we just have to take it. Basta ako, you'll surely stay in my hearts all. You made an astonishing change in me (char! astonishing jd). I wouldn't be the yanz you knew now if it weren't for all the guys I've known in college. They were the stones and guiding walls that helped me survived this mission.
I know few months from now, I'll be finally saying "Mission accomplished" and I would be thanking all of my fellows who's with me through hard times and good times. Good Luck to us all. We'll see each other in the pedestal of success. ^_^