What my birthdate says about me

> Loves to joke.
> Attractive.
> Suave and caring.
> Brave and fearless.
> Firm and has leadership qualities.
> Knows how to console others.
> Too generous and egoistic.
> Takes high pride of oneself.
> Thirsty for praises.
> Extraordinary spirit.
> Easily angered.
> Angry when provoked.
>Easily... jealous.
> Observant.
> Careful and cautious.
> Thinks quickly.
> Independent thoughts.
> Loves to lead and to be led.
> Loves to dream.
> Talented in the arts, music and defense.
> Sensitive but not petty.
> Poor resistance against illnesses.
> Learns to relax.
> Hasty and trusty.
> Romantic.
> Loving and caring.
> Loves to make friends .


Based from facts about myself, i guess, it was all true. Does it mean that all people born on the day I was born have all these characteristics too? tsk tsk. I doubt.

He's doin great. Should I be happy?

Staring at the sky watching the stars. I don't understand myself again. Wondering how my heart have been. It's been years now but why do I still get the same feeling whenever I see him. I'm crazy. I'm sure I am. I get emotional again. I dont know what to do. I don't know what am I supposed to feel. The stars are shining brightly like it always does. It decorates the sky and scare the rain clouds away. How I wish they can also scare away the feelings that I am not supposed to feel. I'm alone in this battle. How I wish I can share this to anybody so as to lighten my burden somehow and shed this stupid feeling.

Like the stars, all I can do is watch him from a distance and wish for it to fall. But how many years do I have to wait to pluck the star and let it fall? I'm pathetic. I'm hopeless. I remember countless promises to forget anything about this stupid feeling but I always end up feeling like this. Sitting in the balcony, staring at the stars-filled sky. The stars have always been my audience in the pathetic drama held in my balcony. I'm hopeless. Pathetic. Stupid. Broken (again). He still have my heart. I still can't find it. How I wish he just returned it back to me even if its broken so that I can move on and start again with those tiny pieces.

Many years have passed, countless attempts of finding my weary little heart have been made, but its totally useless coz I can't find it anywhere. Did you bury it somewhere? Please tell me where. I'm hopeless in finding it.

I know I'm strong, I'm in control. A woman with a plan. But why do I forget what I'm supposed to do when I'm looking at you. I'm an idiot. You're indeed my sweetest downfall. And I was never proud of it. I'm sad. Coz I know no matter how many times I wish, It will not come true. I'd rather fall and be inlove with a virtual person coz I'm sure it will not hurt that bad. It's easier to believe that I cannot own a virtual lover rather than to accept the fact that you can't be mine.

My star, I want to reach for you, but here I am, stuck in the ground. You're so high. So, why should I try, I know I'm gonna fall down. I don't wanna hear the sound of losing what I never found. I'm missing you way too much. Wondering when do I give up what I've been wishing for.

Every instance that I see you, I always play this sad song, sitting in the corner of the balcony, staring at the starry sky, and tears just keep falling.

I don't know where I'm at
I'm standing at the back
And I'm tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I'll find what I've been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I'm going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it's coming down
Can't find another way around
And I don't want to hear the sound of losing what I never found.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
That I could be missing
I'm missing way too much
So when do I give up what I've been wishing for

**Down - Jason Walker**